exhausted...

you know you go through certain tests in life, some make you stronger while others make you feel weak...so how much longer am i under the spotlight?? i'm going nuts...i have so much on my mind that i dare not talk about...some of which could wreck lives while others it'll just piss them off. i'm so tired of a lot, i'm so tired of so much stuff that it's ridiculous. i have never in my life been sooooo exhausted...when is it going to ease for me?? can life actually go as i want it to for a change and just let me be happy without any worries whatsoever??? ahhh someone get me a cigarette...

xoxo,
dee :)